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Dear readers, I've just downloaded this livejournal application, so let's see how this works. Chinese New Year is relatively good this year despite the fact that we didn't really have a reunion dinner. Well it is still on-going so lets see how it carries on till day 15. I've been eating, sleeping and hanging out late for the past two weeks, body is not reacting properly now. To the gym very soon I will. Enough festivities, back to work its time. (old English sounds weird aye?) I could not fall asleep yesterday night with excessive thoughts crashing my brain. It's all about decision making. I believe I should lighten up and see things in a different light. I think too much for my own good. Well, I like things to be in my control, so once they are not within my jurisdiction, I'll become restless and panic. I simply just don't understand how certain things work and I'm in need of finding out why. Yet curiosity kills the cat, they say. I need to find the balance. Answers. Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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| Resurrection |
[Jan. 22nd, 2012|11:19 pm] |
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Dear readers,
HELLO THERE! First of all, let me wish everyone a Happy 2012! (:
It has been REALLY long since I last posted an entry. Well, I enlisted into the army and things just caught up from there. Trust me, it was not a smooth-sailing journey for me throughout these two years. But look! I am going to ORD in few weeks' time and another phase of life will soon begin. It is pretty exciting come to think of it. Oh time flies, really.
The last post was written when I was 19, and now I am past 21. I really need some plan to work my life out, I do not wish to die in vain. L0L So, I have decided to document my journey (once again - and I will try my very best to update this space as much as I can). So do read up if you - or whoever - are interested.
Peace out. (:
P.S. and before I forget, Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! Gong xi gong xi~
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[Apr. 15th, 2010|03:34 am] |
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Dear Journal,
How are you? I guess I've neglected you for quite some time. Perhaps I was too lazy to just update you. I've been like that since two years ago, God knows what hit me. I apologise.
I can't fall into sleep, lately. I've been waking up in the late afternoon, missing breakfast (not mentioning I'm not a breakfast kind of person) and lunch, then I'll be wide awake till late, (like now) and the vicious cycle goes. I fret for my army days if this goes on. Oh well, I was just thinking about my life after secondary school times till now. I realised I'd done nothing, or to say I'd achieved very minimal through these two and a half years. So much for me dreaming to achieve so much. They'd just gone to waste due to my laziness, constant procrastinations, excuses, etc...
Perhaps I just need to want them bad enough. I am not focused enough. I need to find back my true self again, though I've found that inner peace in me. I've been having green eyes on so many people yet I do nothing about it. I feel like such a loser. SO, it's time to piece myself back again. I gotta tell myself "Enough", "I need to do something to stop these bad causes". To get back that standards! I need to set goals now. |
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| The Standards of Life |
[Feb. 11th, 2010|02:11 am] |
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Dear readers,
I've come to learn that there are many standards in life.
Everyone needs to find their suitable spot to fit right in.
Some people fight for theirs, whilst some merely just fit.
It is always a constant search.
Never have I realised that the world is so much bigger than I used to think it is until I started working.
Every single day interacting with different social statuses of people,
it never fails to inspire and intrigue me that there is so much more in life.
So, so much more.
I'm quite disappointed that I've not done anything to make myself more competitive.
Because I want to improve and move on.
I must not remain dormant.
But to search for my standards in life.
Happiness;
Love;
Health;
Money;
Knowledge;
Social Standing are all important factors in life.
And I will fight to search for my spot - for the standards of life. |
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| A Divine Reminder |
[Feb. 8th, 2010|12:58 am] |
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Dear readers,
Woo, it's been a while.
While I was busy promoting the fruits, a divine reminder struck me when I saw this lady with a top, labeled:
"Self-Control Will Lead To Success".
It felt as though Someone knew what has been going wrong in my life and tried to pull me back with this divine reminder. I guess I really need to discipline myself more before I regret about what I've been procrastinating.
I want so much in life. |
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| A New Genesis |
[Jan. 21st, 2010|12:34 am] |
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Dear readers,
First and foremost, my bad for not wishing any of you a happy twenty-ten! I've been really busy lately. Somehow, the new year wasn't a good start for me. Well, things are getting better, I hope. Anyhoo, I'm turning 20 this year. The step into adulthood is finally approaching - feeling excited about it yet dread its arrival, especially the burdens tagging along. So how was the new year for all of you?
Well, I guess this space has been a barren land. I doubt anyone comes back here anymore. (Well or not for the exceptions who are actually reading what I'm typing here) So I've kinda decided to make this space more insightful and deep, rather than the cliche and draining entries I used to type.
Have you felt that you actually don't belong? Because I'm beginning to feel that insecurity. I'm not sure it's appropriate for me to say this, but I feel that I'm kinda the odd one out in the family. I'm tired for always being the filial son, and doing things out of obligations. My heart tells me to rebel, disregard all piety and do whatever I want. Yet I'm never like that. Maybe I was just born this way. To be good, to be a good person to everyone, well almost. Yet I'm losing touch of the thin line between good and bad. I'm kinda confused though, my father has been such a child! The TEO family can be rather dramatic and complicating, and I wonder why I love them so much.
Well, I gotta hit the sack before the dark circles kick in. Work tomorrow. (Yeah tell me about it) So, rest well everyone.
Bonne Nuit. |
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| Something New |
[Nov. 21st, 2009|11:41 pm] |
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Dear readers,
HOWDY HOWDY.
A Level is finally over!
No more stuffing of notes late at night.
No more last minute chionging of revisions.
Last but not least, NO MORE STUDYING (at least for the next two years or so)!!!!
*screams*
BUT the worse has yet to come. =/
Let me enjoy first. Haha.
Well, since I have some free time before I sleep,
I shall write something here tonight.
Life has been tough (as always) but I've learnt many things through it all.
Relationships are more complicated than I thought they supposed to be.
What is love actually?
I've been pondering about it recently.
What do we love anyway?
Love is so commonly used among our daily conversations and it is frequently used excessively and inappropriately.
What is the actual extent of the consequences of the usage of that word?
The love of family?
The love of partners?
The love of superficiality?
The love of self?
The love of world?
I have this idea striking on me lately.
How many a time we treat our partners as our very good friends instead of someone to share your everything and anything?
How many a time we actually love the person for who they are instead of what they can provide for us?
How many a time we enjoy the company instead of demanding more and more of the person?
How many a time we think for the world instead of ourselves?
How many a time we can sacrifice for something we truly believe in instead of doing what the mainstream is ought to be?
And how many a time we actually sit down and ponder about what we humans can do and our purpose instead of wasting our lives away in vain?
I was told that "Though there may be so many religions in the world, they are all together one religion, and that is the religion of love."
I was taken aback by that statement.
It created so much commotions within me.
So much questions left unanswered.
Yet I was deeply enlightened by it.
I could not agree more.
The sky was beautiful tonight.
With a picture painted by the clouds.
Standing there gazing at the masterpiece.
I can't help but feel safe under the embrace of love.
Good night to all. (: |
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[Oct. 20th, 2009|12:53 am] |
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Dear readers,
I need to change my life.
I don't want the vicious cycle to go on.
I want to hold on to my values.
I want to be happy from within.
Save me. Save me... |
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| The Arts |
[Sep. 30th, 2009|11:50 pm] |
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Dear readers,
NEW SINGLES!!
I've been hooked. >.O
Britney Spears - 3
God, this song's about threesome.
How cool is that?
I mean the song, not threesome. Hee
Backstreet Boys - Straight Through My Heart
I realised that they can be quite hot.
Especially the botak guy. *yumz*
Anyway, today, I wanna be a lil artsy-fartsy.
So I played with the camera.
I received this from the Navy.
A Commanding Officer, an Excel Sheet Manager and a Powerpoint Supervisor. L0L
The class photo is out.
And to my horror, they're gonna put the first photo in the year book!
I look horrible.
Why can't they put the second one instead? Gees =/
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